A secret, revealed

[Sshhh!]

Y'know, THIS YEAR, I attempted suicide. Fail.

Yes, i know, it's not a solution to your problems but i wasn't looking for one.

 I finally got the courage and told my Dad. He got a grip of all sorts of people and i found myself on more medication than i should be on.

Bleh, and the medication wasn't even tasty.

I say i'm fine & i am, but not in the way i want to be.

What's the way i want to be 'fine'? Well, take a guess.

I still wonder:

What went wrong, was it just that i was too scared?

Let's let my mind drift away for a second or two

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And then among these thoughts you came in, helped me get better.

I had no use for the pills anymore.

And i thank you for that (:

I miss you a lot. A lot more than you do.

You were my confidante, and in a second that all changed; You then gave me reason to start the pills again.

Oh no, that spells trouble..

But an overdose is not enough.

Let's try again, what i failed to do so long ago, and see if i'll succeed this time.

Will you stop me in time?

Will you?

[Sshh!]