School's a bitch!

School has always been a bitch and will always be a bitch.
The worst school in my opinion, out of all the schools i've been to is AIS-Riyadh.
it is fucking ridiculous.
How can anyone even learn anything, or accomplish anything?
It should be a school for the handicapped or the impaired.
I think it's mostly because of the adults and their primitive thinkings.
Ugh, i hate all the adults of my generation.

My most chill teacher, Mr. Bourcier ratted me out to the principal.
Ya5ri, i already speak french so wtfff?
Just because i had a preentation to do.
He goes and sends an email that i ditched class.
Doesn't he know that notifying the principal always leads to big shit?
Has he no heart, no pity, no empathy?
I swear i hate him so much.
The only reason i ccare so much was because it was him, of all the teachers i have, who did this to me.
I think i'll never get over it.
I dont hold grudges but i keep these things written down because revenge is a platter i serve piping hot!
I hope he dies a horrible death.
One day, Karma will have her say!
What goes around comes around.
You cant just do things to people and expect everything to be okay.
The moment might come and pass you by, but if he thinks this is the end, hes got another things coming.

Then again, had i been ditching with someone else, things might have turned out alright. Rania had to go and tell the truth. Dissapointing but i dont think she knew anybetter. She burst into tears and they took pity on her. I could never bring myself to cry no matter how real or how false my tears were. I cant have people take pity on me. Not in that way. They'd have to know the story. They'd have to understand. I just couldnt bring myself to cry infrontof their eyes and seem so weak. I've always been the bad guy. The bad guy doesnt cryy, wtfff?
So i basically took the blame for the both of us. I have to skip and make up for more lessons. I have to act confident for the both of us. And now my own principal looks down on me. TBH, i really dont care. His perception of me wont break me, make, me change me or ruin me. He's just another soul lost on this fucked up earth.  He has no right to be a critic of me. I havent given him the right. I havent shown him me. But yet i let him do what he pleases. People are already on my back for a billion and one things. This shall just be a billion and two. And Rania might not like to be scarred for life but its only  a  mistake you made in freshman year. you now know not to mess with fucking AISR ey?  And after 3 years ima let it go. Right now i cant stand all this bullshit but one  day i'll be free from it all. I am going to take the fastest way out of here.

I remember how kind they were in British. They were just too kind and they didnt get upset over silly things such as skipping a third of a class. wtf. IMAGINE. they know better than to get worked up over these sorts of things. I loved it so much there. I spent my childhood there. I thought my worst years were spent there but i had no idea AISR was going to be this bad. ever since i got here ive been looking for a way out. It's made me wreckless and careless and i dont like it but it just aggravates so much to be in this school. -Lol, jungle junction is on ruining my whole angryy, bashful mood  hahahah - I just cant find the words to explain how unhappy i am at the school. I have no respect for anybody at this school except for my friends, the people ii find to be good or decent people and mr. doig. Other than that no other staff member! I really wouldnt mind if they all died ( except for my teachers, they're sometimes kind to me and thats EXCLUDING OF COURSE mr. francois bourcier).

I've always seen my future as so bright. I know i am capapble of so much. In british school i was in the highest of all high places. I was way above average. I was at the bottom of the smarts and i really liked it. I was cool/ popula. Teachers would have nominated me for things. The i came to AISR where no teacher knows me well. None of them know my history. None of them even care. My English teacher was a biased racist old hag! My science teacher was a perfectionist! I can never get history so i failed. My math teacher made me redo algebra 1 whereas i was in algebra 2 /trig in british. My only good class was art where i got an award and P.E cos im really sporty. I had a passing grade in orchestra and tech and the teachers were pretty chill.
But then came highschool and my life went downhill from there. I got a new bf, and he broke up with me suddenly. Short relationship that left me heartbroken and really messed with my head. Why would you do that to me Shammary? ugh, whatever. You chose farah over, i am never going to forget that. I mena you could have chosen anyone, but HERR!!?? I was so dissapointed i just didnt know what to do anymore. Just thinking of this makes my heart ache and my eyes flood. Then the seniors mess me up, next the juniors. ugh what else? My DEJA VU life is worse this time around. I swear i wish i could just die but im too afraid of death. I am just too afraid of dying. Too aafraid of leaving this world behind because i dont know wht comes nexxt. My time wil come and let it come when it has to and not a minute sooner. And i wouldnt want to be inconsiderate to the poeple who truly love me.

UGH, FML!